Fear of infinity/eternity

As I search through internet, I've realized that lots of you has same fear as I did or do. I have not 100% overcome this, though I get this very rare nowadays. Trust me, I'm probably the most experienced apeirephobia(whatever fancy name it has) person you can ever imagine. So if you really want me to help, don't skim it but read it carefully all the way. Just for the record, before few days ago, I didn't have fear for about an year, which is quite huge advance for me. Besides, I just overcame that fear so easily than i use to. So it goes all the way down to the time when I was like 4. My grandmother died, so i began to think about death (probably not in very legit way since i've only recognized that she was not around anymore). But I thought at that time that we will somehow re-spawn again on earth after we die. Then my mother tells me that we don't re-spawn when we die. She didn't say about the heaven thing clearly enough(im christian if u didnt realize) so i just thought we just die and there's no more. But in church when i was like 8or9, i've learned that we do get re-spawn in the different place called heaven. I was so happy to hear that because I'm not just gonna die and disappear. Then, like year after, I got a problem. Certainly, the fact that we don't disappearing forever relieved me but the fact that Im gonna live forever also bothered me. Not just bother me like I'm failing in class, but like hell bothering. You will know it very well, but it takes your breath and squeezes ur heart.I've tried everything, like read bible when i got that seizure and stuff, but it was only temporary thing. SO HOW DID I OVERCOME THIS (ALMOST)? Usually, the people who get this fear is the people that believe in heaven. So, ya, Christians, Muslims, Hindus, and many more religion people. So you gotta ask this fundamental question. Why did got made this kingdom? Because he wants to live with us in perfect happiness happily ever after. Don't just think in a way like "endless". Just think this concept as "happily ever after". Besides, who wants us to be stay out of God's salvation(sorry I'm writting this in Christian perspective)? The devils. THey try to instill the fear of heaven so that you can't have a pleasant hope or picture of heaven. Since heaven is our final destination, devils trying to disturb us from having our motivation of going to heaven. And I know for sure this advice is not one of the best argument because otherwise I wouldn't have been able to overcome this(almost). By second best argument is that u have a wrong conception about eternity. God's concept of time is very different from what we understand or use to in our present life. Time doesn't rule God, but God rules time. I'm sure that since He loves us, he will take away all this fear we have on the concept oftimeless. Beside, he wouldn't need time in heaven since the time is important in our universe and it's our standard and our universe's rule. In addition, lots of people think they understand the concept of eternity but they don't. No one understands eternity but it doesnt bother them. It bothers us since our mind pushes us to do so. I'M SERIOUS. NO ONE IN UNIVERSE UNDERSTAND ETERNITY. You know why? BECAUSE THE CONCEPT OF ETERNITY MEANS THAT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND IT. So imagine a guy who was curious what would happen when he keep on adding +1 to a certain number. But he didn't sure. So he gives up and call it "ETERNITY" since he can't just keep adding +1 for the rest of his life to figure out what would happen. So, his experiment of keep adding one was not successful and he didn't get any answer. Therefore, he never really got answer for this concept but gave name to it instead. But there is one person who understand this. GOD. So imagine that u r living in 2D world and one of the guy tells you what the 3D world looks like. YOU WILL NOT GET IT AT ALL. We are just stupid earthlings who tries to understand the concept that only people in the 3D world will know. And my last awesome argument will amaze you. God got your back! You know He loves you! He doesn't want you to suffer. When he gives some kind of fear upon you, it's the way of him to say that "ehemm!! Dude, did u already forget that I'm actually the scary guy? U seem to kind of ignore me these days. Just so you know..." Therefore, I think part of the reason he was giving me this Apeirophobia(seriously, that fancy name,which i just figured out today, sounds really like mental disease) is because He wants me to remember again that the owner of myself should be Him. But, once we fear him, he takes ur fear back and give blessing again. The reason I'm keeping telling you guys that I'm"almost" cured is that I would not perhaps get cured 100% for the rest of my life. Nothing is perfect and though I might be strong again for like few months or even years if I'm lucky, it might hit me again in any time when we are vulnerable by devil and forgetful about God. But you always gotta remember, that God is greater than our fear and He loves you. Heaven is a wonderful place and you will never get bored. Lean to Him and pray Him. Give your fear to Him. And who knows? I may "almost" cure your Apeirophobia, but God might "completely" cure it. *Tip: The fear often comes when you have no goal(long-term or short-term) or you are extremely tired or stressed recently. Therefore, reason it happens at night often is because you are less busy and tend to think more. Your emotion gets more sensitive and you are more impulsive. Therefore, start make habit of reading bible at night before you go to bed. It really helps.